Since 1/1/10 I’ve lost almost 40 lbs which is quite significant because I’m only 5’2”. At the beginning of the year I was obese at 174 lbs and am now a slightly overweight 137 lbs. I just looked at pictures of myself from a year ago and honestly wanted to cry. I still want to cry. I have no idea how I let my weight get so out of hand. I can no longer deny that I was, in fact, obese. My boyfriend of 4 years was also shocked and appalled at how large I was. Neither of us realized at the time how fat I really was.
I used to scoff at the BMI and talk about how it didn’t account for body types (like most larger people do) and rant about how it wasn’t fair that regular stores often didn’t carry my size pants. After all, I had plenty of friends and co-workers who were larger then me and often commented on how I was “tiny”, “little” or “skinny”. When the issue of weight was brought up with a group of co-workers or friends they would roll their eyes and scoff and say things like:
* I don’t see where you could lose weight from.
* I don’t know what you’re talking about I think you have an ideal body type.
* As if you need to lose weight, now ME on the other hand! (and then they would launch into a story about how fat they were)
When in fact the whole time I was truly obese and these people, although they meant to be flattering, were actually negatively effecting my weight and artificially inflating my body image.
Body perception is a truly tricky thing. It’s been shown in studies that if you are often around people who are heavy, you yourself will become heavier. You end up eating the same amount of food they do and you lose perception of what a “normal” portion or body size is. This is especially true in our society where 2/3 of the population is overweight with 1/3 being considered obese. Just because everyone is big, doesn’t mean that we’re all supposed to be that way.
This is especially important to note with the emergence of the “fat acceptance” movement, although in theory I can see how this would seem like a great idea. I totally see how people read someone’s blog or an article about “fat acceptance” and think: “Yeah! Fuck what corporate America wants me to look like, fuck what the system says. I can be one awesome, enlightened, empowered, feminist ball of awesome if only I accept my body as is 50+ extra pounds and all! Whoo! That was easy, I feel so much better about myself!”.
Unfortunately, a lot of people read these and decide to just give up on being healthy and are happy to stay just as they are until the next time they take a blow to their self esteem or body image. If only the idea behind this was love your body with all it’s flaws but work towards being healthier, I could totally get behind it. Unfortunately, based on my experience with the “fat acceptance” movement it’s more about giving up on improving yourself and yelling at or ignoring people who tell you that you really should lose some weight, even if those people happen to be loved ones who care about you or a medical professional whose job it is to tell you how unhealthy you are. It’s gotten to the point where most doctors don’t talk to obese patients about their weight. I read a “fat acceptance” blog by someone who literally walked out of the Dr.’s office when the issue of weight came up and they decided that they were never going to go to see a Dr. again, this person also stopped talking to family members who were concerned about her health because of her weight. Seriously, this person would rather shave off 15 years of her life then actually accept that she was fat. The “fat acceptance” movement is less about actually accepting that you are fat and more about pretending that there is nothing wrong with being morbidly obese or “death fat” as one “fat acceptance” blogger put it. Expecting to see comments on this post talking about how fucking crazy she was I was shocked to see overwhelmingly positive “You go girl! Fat girls rock!” type comments.
We’ve gotten to a point where we’d rather be upset at the entire world rather then actually looking at ourselves and figuring out why we are the way we are and improving ourselves. Sure, it’s easy to blame fast food chains, ice cream, “outdated” BMI targets, clothing manufacturers, size biased advertising, genetics, etc. on why we have body image issues or are overweight, but you know what would be better…putting your height and weight in a BMI calculator, examining your eating and exercise habits, looking in the mirror and realizing that there is probably a lot of improvement to be made in making you a healthier person.
This post is obvisously directed at overweight, obese, or morbidly obese people so I don’t want to hear any “you’re encouraging anorexia and eating disorders” bullshit. I swear to god, every single blog/article talking about how most people should eat less or diet/exercise has hundreds of comments talking about how saying that sort of thing encourages eating disorders. How did we get to a point in society where we couldn’t talk about obtaining a healthy weight without the conversation deteriorating into 1) people saying that it encourages eating disorders or 2) that there is nothing wrong with being fat? It makes me so sad.
I guess all I can say is in the end, your health is truly up to you. You can either be like I was and ignore, deny or “accept” that you are overweight or you can get off your ass and actually improve yourself. Nobody else is going to walk up to you and magically give you the body you want. Although it may seem difficult at first, stick with it and as you see little improvements or reach little milestones you’ll be more encouraged to keep going until you reach your health goals. I promise.
He’s just cute!
I want a Boston Terrier so bad! Wes has basically resigned to letting me have one. Now I just need to find one that isn’t going to cost me lots of money. They are surprisingly hard to find.
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